I'm alive, I'm alive!

Shew I have had a crazy past few weeks! On June 7 I ended up having an emergency open appendectomy! I know crazyness right! I woke up at like 1 or so am with the worlds worst horrible abdominal pain I have ever felt in my life! I went to the bath room thinking that was the problem however the pain was only getting worse. I didn't think I was gonna be able to make it until the morning so I had to wake up my hubby to help me...then the puking started!!!! To make a long story short I ended up with a sever case of appendicitis and had to have surgery asap! I was discharged the next day but wow the pain and the long time of recovery! Not to mention the loss of appeitie I had and kinda still have! I've lost 3 lbs since my surgery and well it kind of motivated me in a strange way to keep going! I think because I FINALLY saw the numbers moving it's like ok ok I can do this! Since then I haven't wanted to eat a whole lot but I'm making myself do the 6 small meals because I know that is what I need to be doing! I'm not allowed to do any kind of working out for atleast 2-3 more weeks maybe even longer depending on how I feel then...really bums me out for my race in Sept! I know now I won't have that great of a time! So until I can run again I'm really focusing on my diet right now. I may start trying to walk everyday to atleast be doing something. I have figured out in order to lose 5 lbs a week one needs to be buring 2,500 calories a week...a mile burns about 100 calories...depending on pace but that is what most do burn...I will be back tomorrow to post recipes and get back on track...I need to retake my photos but will wait till my incision isnt as noticable! Hope everyone is having great success with your goals...and remember it might be slow progress but it's progress! Blessings!

What have I found...

An app I have had on my phone that now that I use I feel will help me out! I have had the app "Myfitness Pal" on my phone for a little bit now but never really used it or stayed committed on it. I had thought about trying Weight Watchers for like 2.5 but thought why not use what you have for free on your phone. I'm able to pull up everything I have eaten including resturante foods, you can scan foods at grocery stores, and input your exercise! I put in my weight and my goal and I love that after I put in everything that day it tells me where I'll be in 5 weeks if I keep on that same track!!! Heck I can do this! I also found a new website thanks to a friend and I wanted to share it! www.skinnytaste.com Before I went to the commissary today I sat down, meal planned, and I wished I'd done this sooner! I think I have it all kind of sorta figured out...I finally feel like I can do this without help without an easy quick fix, with good ol diet and hard exercise! I know it will be a long road and not easy but I'll get there! I just hope my appretite suppresses soon! I have no problem eating what I know is the right amount of calories it just sucks STILL feeling hungry!!! Body over mind, I'm not hungry just drink some water and so far it's starting to help! Body over mind, I can run and run a lot farther and longer than I think! I can do this, I have to do it! Here is my recipe I want to share for today brought to you by www.skinnytaste.com and they are freaking amazing!!! I made them for dinner!!!

Cheesy Jalapeño Popper Baked Stuffed Chicken

What happens when you combine

Skinny Baked Jalapeño Poppers

with chicken??

Oh yeah baby!! Cheesy stuffed chicken breast stuffed with diced jalapeño, cream cheese, cheddar jack cheese, scallions and bacon!

I basically deconstructed my jalapeño poppers and stuffed them into chicken and the results where mouth watering!! I used bread crumbs because I was out of panko, but I think seasoned panko would give these a wonderful crunch like I used on my Skinny Baked Jalapeño Poppers.

I made the serving size a generous two pieces, so a simple vegetable, fiesta lime rice, or a salad on the side would make this a complete meal. Trust me, you won't want to stop at just one!

And those of you on Pinterest, if you want some Skinny Cinco De Mayo inspiration, check out my

Cinco De Mayo board

!

Cheesy Jalapeño Popper Baked Stuffed Chicken
Skinnytaste.com
Servings: 4 • Serving Size: 2 stuffed breasts • Old Points: 9 pt • Points+: 9 pts
Calories: 371 • Fat: 17.5 g • Protein: 42.7 g • Carb: 11 g • Fiber: 1.5 g • Sugar: 0.6 g
Sodium: 355.8 mg (without salt)

Ingredients:

• 2 slices center cut bacon, cooked and crumbled
• 3 jalapeños, chopped (remove seeds for milder)
• 3 oz 1/3 less fat cream cheese, softened
• 4 oz reduced fat shredded cheddar jack (Sargento)
• 2 tbsp chopped scallions
• 8 thin sliced skinless chicken breast cutlets, 3 oz each
• 1/2 cup Italian seasoned whole wheat breadcrumbs
• 1 1/2 juicy limes, juice of
• 1 tbsp olive oil
• salt and fresh pepper
• olive oil non-stick spray

Directions:

Wash

and

dry

chicken cutlets,

season

with salt and pepper.

Preheat

oven to 450°. Lightly

spray

a baking dish with non-stick spray.

Combine cream cheese, cheddar, scallions, jalapeño and bacon crumbles in a medium bowl.

Lay

chicken cutlets on a working surface and spread 2 tbsp of cream cheese mixture on each cutlet. Loosely

roll

each one,

secure

the ends with toothpicks to prevent the cheese from oozing out.

Place breadcrumbs in a bowl; in a second bowl combine olive oil, lime juice, salt and pepper.

Dip chicken in lime-oil mixture, then in breadcrumbs and place seam side down on a baking dish. Repeat with the remaining chicken. When finished, lightly spray the top of the chicken with oil spray.

Bake

22-25 minutes, serve immediately

The reality!

UGH here they are my nasty before photos taken back in Jan. Molly was about 3 months old...
Current weight is 190.0
I was 196 when I started this blog. I gained over 80 lbs with both pregnancies and with Molly even though she nursed I didn't lose and I noticed a few lbs tacked on when she stopped. But here you have it! Me...I can't wait to see my afters!!!!

Where have I been?

Well life has been kinda of crazy past little bit (not really an excuse) but I have still been getting a least a run in! I keep telling myself every night I needed to sit down and update but by the time it's bed time I'm done! I've been fighting a battle with myself after deep thought, prayers, reflection, talking and not talking to my doctor and with friends I've just decided to suck it up and do things the right way for me. We have also been talking about having another baby and I REALLY want to lose this weight even more now. I will say I am so blessed with a 4 year old that don't see me the way I see myself. I was getting ready and looked at myself in the mirror and rambled off that I was fat...which I shouldn't do anyways because I don't want her and Molly to ever feel the way I do about myself, I want them to love the person they are and she looks at me and says "Mommy you are not fat stop saying that you are beautiful" my heart just broke and I cried...and I told her how much I love her and thank you! I don't want her to be ashamed of me or embarrassed, I always worry about that...she totally let me know that she isn't and that she loves me no matter what! To her I am mommy the best mommy ever as she often tells me with a huge hug and kiss! That girl always knows what to say and when to say it and I am sure it's God speaking to me at times through the innocents of her! Since I last wrote I haven't seen my doc anymore I don't want to talk to a man much about my weight especially since he can't really help me. I thought about doing the Adipex thing since there is a doctor that can prescribe it off base but that is $120.00 a pop each time ($60 a visit and $60 to fill the prescription) and after really reading about it and having Matt's option I have just let that idea go out of my head...it really doesn't sound like the best thing to take...I mean sure it might be a fast option but I want to keep this off not lose it and bam it's back. There are the HCG shot places here that are like $60 a week however you are on a 500 cal a day diet and well that just don't seem healthy! I have the tools and knowledge of what I need to do and I don't know what hit me but it's just time to stop trying to find the easy way out and do what I need to do and my results will come and be better than I ever thought and I'm ready! So I thought I'd share my running schedule with you all, here is the link: http://as1.wdpromedia.com/media/ewwos/pdf/rundisney/Galloway/TOT12beg.pdf
It's for the race I'm running at Disney this September. I have been really thinking about running the Walt Disney Marathon in Jan and I think after this race I'll make that decision. Running used to be a very strong suit of mine and once I start losing weight this will become even easier for me it just sucks getting to that point! I have come to realize about myself that I long for the body I used to have and it's hard to accept that I will have to work hard for getting that. I will have to go run when I don't want to, I will have to work out when I don't want too, I will have to give up foods that I don't want to and that I KNOW are not good for me and it just blows! BUT the rewards will be great and I will be happy that I had to suffer! I want to have those amazing before and after pictures! Which here in a few I will post my HORRIBLE before photos. So my eating hasn't really changed much since last time I posted my eating schedule (which I'm sorry I need to get back on doing) but I am working on slowly cutting out the not so great stuff even more! I have also thought about sharing a recipe once a day, what do you all think about that?