5 lbs ago...

Well here I am start of week 3 of really working out of some form...running, walking, elliptical, weights something! I'm still feeling really good too! Which normally by now I just want to go back to my old ways, I think knowing my race is within two months is helping me stay on track! I feel like I'm at a point that I've never wanted anything more right now! I've ran for over a hour and a half twice now and I felt great both times. Very encouraging! This week according to the running schedule this week I have 30 min run days but I'm gonna do 45 mins. That way I make sure I burn the calories and since I had over a month off from surgery wanna get back on track! On my non run days I atleast walk and then do a little weights. It's also been the only me time I have been getting so I'm making the most of it. Matt will be leaving in a little under a month and will be gone until the end of October so I've been working on my plan of what to do workout wise while he is gone....I am fixing to invest in a slow cooker too. Maddison is getting better about trying things so this will help her and myself. Molly eats whatever I make LOL :) Things are becoming easier for me which makes me so excited! I love the feeling I have when I accomplish something. Stepping on the scale each week and seeing weight loss even if it it is one or two pounds keeps me going as well. 5 lbs down in 2 weeks of working works for me! Slow and steady wins the race right? I want to lose in a way it stays off! I have also been realizing that I am very, VERY hard on myself and the words I use about me. Matt gets so upset at me because I'm so mean about myself. Mean as in I call myself fat all the time, I say I'm nasty looking, I can't stand to see myself naked...I just have no confidence at all. But I will get there. I will love me again! Well I do love me I just don't love my look right now :) 5 lbs I was a little bloated, clothes were tighter, I was sluggish, I was tired, I didn't want to do anything but that has changed! I hope it continues to change and I stay motivated and I stay working out! Each day I try to tell myself running is not a chore and make it something I look forward too. I tend to not be as stressed! Eating better is getting much easier also and today I wanted to share my new favorite recipe!

“Spaghetti” and Meatballs Paleo style (Yum!)

So I’ve got another yummy recipe to share! “Spaghetti” and meatballs Paleo style… need I say more? Seriously, if you are getting that craving to devour an entire plate of pasta (yep – I get those cravings a little too often!), you are gonna love this recipe. My kiddos also enjoyed it – which is definitely an added bonus, as they don’t always like my Paleo creations.

“Spaghetti” and Meatballs Paleo style

Ingredients

For the “Spaghetti”:
1 spaghetti Squash (and you really can use any veggie you please to be the substitute for the “noodles”. I’ve had success with both zucchini and butternut squash… but what’s nice about Spaghetti Squash is that you don’t need any sort of kitchen gadget to create the noodles and honestly I think spaghetti squash by far makes the best tasting noodles!)

For the Meatballs:
2 pounds ground turkey (this is what I used, however, you can use beef and/or pork)
1/3 cup almond flour
2 eggs
3 cloves of minced garlic
A handful of fresh chopped basil (or about 1 1/2 teaspoons dried basil)
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1 teaspoon pepper
2 teaspoons salt
1 teaspoon red pepper flakes (for an added kick!)

For the homemade tomato sauce (or use any sauce you please):
1 1/2 tablespoons olive oil
1 onion, chopped
2 to 3 garlic cloves, minced (Yes, I love garlic and my wonderful breathe! )
1 28-ounce can crushed tomatoes
1 6-ounce can tomato paste
A handful of fresh chopped basil (or 1 tablespoon of dried basil)
2 teaspoons salt
1/2 teaspoon pepper
1/2 teaspoon or more crushed red pepper flakes (depending on how spicy you like)

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees and grease a baking sheet. Cut spaghetti squash in half lengthwise and discard the seeds. Place spaghetti squash cut sides down on baking sheet. Bake for about 40 minutes. Once done, remove from oven and let cool.

While the squash is baking, you can start making the meatballs. Just throw all of the meatball ingredients in a bowl and mix with your hands until everything is incorporated. Form into balls and place the meatballs on a baking sheet with parchment paper (if you have it), as this will help make for easy clean up when the fat cooks off while baking. I opted to do without since I didn’t have any parchment paper on hand. Put pan in 350 degree oven for about 25 minutes (should already be preheated from the squash).

Now make the sauce or make it easy by using pasta sauce you already have on hand. For the homemade sauce, heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium high heat. Lower to medium heat and throw in the chopped onion. Saute for about 8 minutes, then add in garlic and saute for 30 seconds more. Lower heat a little and add in crushed tomatoes, tomato paste, basil, salt, pepper and red pepper flakes. Simmer until meatballs are done, then throw them in the sauce and let simmer for another 30 minutes or so. Now you have a killer sauce to go on your “spaghetti”!

Take a large spoon to scoop the “angel hair” pulp from the squash, and place in a bowl.

Finally throw some squash on a plate and top with the meatballs and sauce. If you haven’t completely taken dairy out of your diet, you can also sprinkle some Romano or Parmesan cheese over your masterpiece. I love me some Romano cheese!!

This is definitely one of my favorite Paleo Friendly meals I have made thus far!

I hope you try this! I know you will love it! My 4 year old does!!!! How are you doing on your mission or reaching your goals whatever they may be? Blessings!

One whole hour...

OF RUNNING!!!! I can't believe I was able to do it!!!! Many of times I wanted to stop and then I just kept going! I found my pace and was set! As I approched my one hour mark I realized I had ran 3.76 miles and thought I can make it an even 4 miles but then 60 mins hit and well I was done LOL :) I know my milage wasn't the best but for having surgery not even a month and a half ago I won't complain. The last time I ran 4 miles was March 3 and I ran a time of 58:46, pace 14:39, distance 4.01, calories burned 548. Sooo not too bad! I'll get there though gotta build my endurance back up! I also know that as I start losing weight I'll get faster too. I've been making sure I work out atleast 5 of the 7 days of the week buring 500 a day! I'm losing inches I can really tell that and my weight is coming off slow and steady which wins the race!!!! Excited to see where I'll be in Sept when I run my Disney Race! I know some people out there don't think I can do it especially after having my surgery but I know I can! And I know my weight loss will come! It's exciting to think about where I'll be when my hard work pays off!

Recipe of the day to share with you!!!

Cheesy Zucchini Enchiladas

These cheesy meatless enchiladas are delicious, packed with fiber so they are filling and easy to make – vegetarian or not. Perfect topped with chopped cilantro, scallions or jalapeños and some low fat sour cream.

I love La Tortilla Factory Smart and Delicious Low Carb Tortillas, I used the large size for these enchiladas which are only 2 points plus each. Skinny Bits is doing giveaway, click here for a chance to win some free La Tortilla samples.

Many of you know how much I love enchiladas, I've posted several enchilada recipes in the past; chicken enchiladas, chicken and white bean enchiladas with salsa verde, and turkey and black bean enchiladas. This vegetarian recipe makes a is a wonderful addition to my enchilada collection, and I love that I can add more cheese than I normally would because the filling is so light.

Cheesy Zucchini Enchiladas
Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes
Servings: 4 • Serving Size: 1 large enchilada • Old Points: 5 pts • Points+: 7 pts
Calories: 258.7 • Fat: 13.5 g • Protein: 22 g • Carb: 30.2 g • Fiber: 16.9 g

• cooking spray
• 1 tsp olive oil
• 2 cloves garlic, crushed
• 2 medium scallions, chopped
• 1/4 cup cilantro, chopped
• 2 medium zucchinis, grated
• kosher salt and fresh ground pepper
• 1 1/2 cups grated reduced fat mexican blend cheese (Sargento)
• 4 Large La Tortilla Factory Low Carb tortillas
• chopped scallions (optional)
• chopped cilantro (optional)

Enchilada sauce:

• 1 garlic cloves, minced
• 1 tbsp chipotle chilis in adobo sauce (optional for more heat)
• 1 cups tomato sauce
• 1/4 tsp chipotle chili powder (to taste)
• 1/4 tsp ground cumin
• 1/2 cup fat free vegetable broth
• kosher salt and fresh pepper to taste

For the enchilada sauce:

in a medium saucepan,

spray

oil and

sauté

garlic.

Addchipotle chile

, chili powder, cumin, broth, tomato sauce, salt and pepper.

Bring

to a boil.

Reduce

the heat to low and

simmer

for 5-10 minutes.

Set aside

until ready to use.

Spray a baking dish with nonstick spray. Preheat oven to 400 degrees.

In a medium nonstick skillet, sauté garlic and scallions in olive oil over medium heat for about 3 minutes; add zucchini, salt and pepper to taste and cook about 4-5 minutes.

Remove from heat and add 1/2 cup cheese; mix well.

Divide zucchini between in each tortilla, roll and place seam side down in baking dish.

Top with enchilada sauce (you might not use all) and remaining cheese and bake until hot and the cheese is melted, about 20 minutes.

Serve with chopped cilantro, scallions, and reduced fat sour cream if you wish. Enjoy!!

 

Let me know what you think! I thought they were pretty yummy myself! How are you all doing in your journey of your goals? I believe I need to start adding squats and some ab work. A great runner has a great strong core! I really am wanting to register to run the Walt Disney Marathon in Jan but I can't do it if Matt is not here...well I mean I can but to accomplish something like and him not be here to see me do it don't sound fun! Sooo I'm kind of waiting to see if he will be in school then still. He is already missing this one but it's only 10. I also decided last night I might need some new running shoes! My feet are sore and started to get sore at mile 3...they are well used shoes LOL so I think I need some new ones! Tonight's work out I'm taking it easy and doing a hour on the elliptical. I'm off to finish my day of cleaning!!! YAY ME!

Ahhh scale we met again...

Ugh don't we all hate Monday's and the scale!!! I didn't expect anything this Monday since I had only been working out and doing my 1200 calories, gallon of water a day, burning 500 calories for a week...but to my surprise I have lost 2 more lbs. That's 2 more towards my goal! Sooo it was very encouraging to keep up what I have been doing as much as I hate it LOL I am going to give it my all until Sept 29 which is my Disney race!!!! I'd love to run the Disney Marathon in Jan but I want Matt to be there see me accomplish it and right now we have no clue if he will be because of school! Sooo just gonna focus on this! Tonight I will be hitting up the eliptical for 45-60 mins! Once I find my pace I'm good to go but it takes me a few times to find it LOL :) I'm a mess! I wanted to share a recipe today with you all!

Cauliflower Fritters

This is a delicious way to prepare cauliflower. Similar to the taste of a potato pancake. Your kids will love them! Makes approx 24 fritters depending on size of cauliflower.

Cauliflower Fritters
Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes
Servings: 12 • Size: 2 fritters • Old Points: 2 pts • Points+: 3 pts
Calories: 108.9 • Fat: 6.6 g • Protein: 3.8 g • Carb: 9.4 g • Fiber: 2.1 g

• 4 cups steamed cauliflower (roughly chopped)
  
• 2 cloves garlic, crushed
• 1 cup whole wheat flour
• 2 eggs
• 1/2 cup Pecorino Romano
• 1/4 cup parsley, finely chopped
• 1/4 cup hot water
  
• salt and pepper
• 1/4 cup olive oil

In a large bowl,

combine

cauliflower, flour, garlic, eggs, grated cheese, parsley, salt and pepper.

Add

water so that batter becomes slightly more dense than pancake batter.

On medium-low heat, add 1 tbsp of oil in a 10 inch skillet coating bottom of the pan. Use a 1/4 cup measuring cup to form fritters. You can fit 4 fritters at a time. Cook until golden brown, turn and cook another few minutes. Add a little more oil to the pan, and repeat with the remaining batter.

Makes 24 fritters.


I LOVE THIS SITE! I am finding so many yummy recipes on it! Well I'm off to enjoy my day but not excited about working out!!! I'm sore from last night!!! Hope you are having success in your working out! Remember you are not alone in it and you CAN do it!!!!

Ah Saturday...you have gone by too fast!

It's 9:30 pm and I still haven't gotten my run in!!!! And...I'm probably not going too! UGH I have been so busy today and should have went when they girls were laying down but instead I napped!!! However I wanted to share things are looking up with the whole fitness area of my life! I don't know what has happened but I am also getting better at cleaning up the house (well not that I was a horrible house cleaner but I am a huge procrastinator :) Anywho before I knew it this day flew by and I just want to go to bed! But I wanted to share a few things I found before I do! My schedule of working out has been this so far:
M-eliptical 45-60 mins
T-Run 30-45 mins
W-eliptical 45-60 mins
TH-Run 30-45 mins
F-eliptical 45-60 mins
Sat-these are my run days based off my rundisney workout

Still doing great with staying under 1200 calories a day and burning atleast 500 calories a day. Sooo since tomorrow is my rest day I'll be making up today :) I have been thinking about getting up before Matt goes to work and getting this done but I LOVE my sleep LOL however I think I can get used to it! Matt will be leaving next month so I will have to start using the parent room on base! So part of me don't want to get in that routine since he leaves soon! I also found these today and wanted to share thinking of doing these too with my cardio!!!!

Of course we are not in these months but we can do this on any day or start the first day of the week kind of thing! They won't take that long to do so I know we can do it! I am going to add squats in here as well! If you don't know what the day's work out is please google it and make sure you do it correctly as to not hurt yourself!

Here is the recipe I wanted to share tonight!!! It look's heavenly and I'm making it tomorrow!

Skinny Chicken Enchiladas

So we were in the mood for a Mexican food tonight and enchiladas sounded amazing! However, I had never made them before so this was going to be quite the new venture for me. I was pleased to find out they were surprisingly easy to make and tasted so delicious!

I actually adapted my own lightened up version of this dish from a couple of different recipes I found and was really happy with how it turned out.   Don't get me wrong, I LOVE spicy food, but I can only handle so much spice. This to me was perfect! Feel free to top your enchiladas with a bit of sour cream, but don't forget you'll have to add some additional calories....bummer (I know). As a side I paired this with some Spanish rice and we were completely satisfied! I think my boyfriend said it best when he told me, "Babe! These taste like they're from a restaurant!" Yes, yes...I'll go ahead and pat myself on the back now ;)

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Servings: 8
Serving Size: 1 enchilada
Calories: 159.5
Fat: 5.9 g
Carbs: 17.8 g
Protein: 16.2 g
Fiber: 8.3 g
Old Points: 3 pts
Points+: 4 pts
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For the sauce:

2 cloves of garlic, minced

1 can diced green chilis

1-1/2 cups tomato sauce

1 tsp. southwest chipotle seasoning (Mrs. Dash)

1/2 tsp. ground cumin

3/4 cup fat-free chicken broth

Salt and fresh pepper to taste

For the chicken:

1 tsp. vegetable oil

2 chicken breasts, cooked and shredded

1 cup diced onion

2 cloves of garlic, minced

1/4 cup fresh cilantro

Salt

1 tsp. cumin

1/2 tsp. dried oregano

1 tsp. southwest chipotle seasoning (Mrs. Dash)

1/3 cup chicken broth

1/2 cup tomato sauce

8 (6-inch) reduced carb whole wheat flour tortillas

1 cup shredded low-fat Mexican cheese

Nonstick cooking spray

In a medium saucepan, spray oil and saute garlic. Add green chilis, chipotle seasoning, cumin, chicken broth, tomato sauce, salt and pepper. Bring to a boil. Reduce the heat to low and simmer for 5-10 minutes. Set aside until ready to use.

Preheat oven to 400 degrees.

Heat the vegetable oil in a medium skillet over medium-high heat. Saute onions and garlic on low until soft, about 2 minutes. Add chicken, salt, cilantro, cumin, oregano, chipotle seasoning, tomato sauce, chicken broth, and cook 4 to 5 minutes. Remove from heat.

Spray a 13 by 9-inch glass baking dish with non-stick spray. Put 1/3 cup chicken mixture into each tortilla and roll it. Place in baking dish seam side down. Top with sauce and cheese. Cover with foil and bake in the oven on the middle rack for 20-25 minutes. Top with scallions if desired and enjoy!

I am finally getting the hang of this eating better thing...It just takes work and I finally told myself this was about me and I matter too!!!

It's ok to...cheat....ON FOOD!

Well I am finally home from vacation, from surgery recovery, from all the crazyness and it's now time to crack it down! I will say ever since having my appendix removed my idea's of food and eating have some how changed! (Crazy I know!) I have lost almost 10 lbs since having it removed. My appetite was gone at first which was to be "normal" but I needed to eat to not feel so sluggish so I ate small portions on Maddison's size plates. And well I stuck to that after getting home from our 10 days in Kentucky! My appetite is some what normal again but I have not wanted the foods I used to eat. They actually make me kinda sick feeling when I think about them! Soooo since this is all happening I'm taking advantage of it! Soda is gone (also helped me getting a good water filter)  has been for a little bit and now I'm cutting things out slowly...hoping to be 100% paleo starting this coming week! I've gotten almost all of the nonsense food out of the house and the commissary shop is on Friday! Matt is leaving soon so I know this will be easier on me I just need to do my part. It takes work at first but then it's like riding a bike! I don't like having to think about things I'd rather just be shown and then go (I'm a visual learner and it's like that in all area's of my life) but I need to do this! I haven't been able to run since June 5...my surgery was June 7 which was my next running day! I started on Monday of this week with just walking but I ended up jogging some and I was crazy sore yesterday...I am just trying to burn 500 calories a day to help with weight loss! If you want to lose one lb a week you just need to burn 500 calories than you eat :) that's why for me calorie counting is important right now! The myfitnesspal app....LOVE IT! I'm hoping by Saturday I can run longer than 5 mins without hurting!
I found something today that I have always thought about too! It is ok...OK to have a cheat day or meal! Let me show you what I read!

IT’S TOTALLY OKAY TO “CHEAT”!!!!!
First of all, mentally and emotionally you need to feed your soul every once in a while. I mean, there is no fair substitute for warm ooey gooey cookies, succulent cheesecakes, or a REAL juicy cheeseburger with slightly crispy french fries!!! There just isn’t. These foods also bring back happy childhood memories. (You know, because back in the day you could pretty much burn off anything you ate…plus you were growing so you needed those calories…ha.)
Feeding your soul keeps your mind and body at ease. Bad cravings can drive you nuts, so taming them by eating some of your fave “bad foods” is totally ok!
Secondly, if you’re eating clean all the time, having cheat foods is actually good for your metabolism! It keeps your body guessing for what’s next. It doesn’t get comfortable with how to burn calories – it has to continuously work hard to figure out new ways to function so that you don’t plateau. Much like with working out and how you should change your routine every 4 weeks to keep your body shocked, you need to do the same with your diet every once in a while. A lot of people do 1 “cheat meal” a week. I personally don’t plan “cheat meals” because I feel like I have “cheat snacks” here and there anyway, so I choose to eat clean all week as a baseline.
Lastly, having cheat meals helps you to have a more positive relationship with food. Making things forbidden or labeling them as “bad” makes you want them even more. It can even lead to some level of an eating disorder and even binging. By allowing yourself exposure and indulgence in such foods, you teach yourself how to react and handle being around tempting delicacies.
Just be careful not to completely overdo it. The calories still count and you can EASILY pack on an extra thousand or two calories in a sitting if you’re really going all out.

There you have it folks! Now I know I can do this!!!! I have been picking out recipes today so I know what to get at the commissary/grocery store. I know this will help too! I'm so bad to just go and buy whatever!!! Anyone else have some good tips? I'm open for anything!!! Hope you all are doing well!!! Should start seeing more posting now that life is slowing down...finally!!! Blessings!

I'm alive, I'm alive!

Shew I have had a crazy past few weeks! On June 7 I ended up having an emergency open appendectomy! I know crazyness right! I woke up at like 1 or so am with the worlds worst horrible abdominal pain I have ever felt in my life! I went to the bath room thinking that was the problem however the pain was only getting worse. I didn't think I was gonna be able to make it until the morning so I had to wake up my hubby to help me...then the puking started!!!! To make a long story short I ended up with a sever case of appendicitis and had to have surgery asap! I was discharged the next day but wow the pain and the long time of recovery! Not to mention the loss of appeitie I had and kinda still have! I've lost 3 lbs since my surgery and well it kind of motivated me in a strange way to keep going! I think because I FINALLY saw the numbers moving it's like ok ok I can do this! Since then I haven't wanted to eat a whole lot but I'm making myself do the 6 small meals because I know that is what I need to be doing! I'm not allowed to do any kind of working out for atleast 2-3 more weeks maybe even longer depending on how I feel then...really bums me out for my race in Sept! I know now I won't have that great of a time! So until I can run again I'm really focusing on my diet right now. I may start trying to walk everyday to atleast be doing something. I have figured out in order to lose 5 lbs a week one needs to be buring 2,500 calories a week...a mile burns about 100 calories...depending on pace but that is what most do burn...I will be back tomorrow to post recipes and get back on track...I need to retake my photos but will wait till my incision isnt as noticable! Hope everyone is having great success with your goals...and remember it might be slow progress but it's progress! Blessings!

What have I found...

An app I have had on my phone that now that I use I feel will help me out! I have had the app "Myfitness Pal" on my phone for a little bit now but never really used it or stayed committed on it. I had thought about trying Weight Watchers for like 2.5 but thought why not use what you have for free on your phone. I'm able to pull up everything I have eaten including resturante foods, you can scan foods at grocery stores, and input your exercise! I put in my weight and my goal and I love that after I put in everything that day it tells me where I'll be in 5 weeks if I keep on that same track!!! Heck I can do this! I also found a new website thanks to a friend and I wanted to share it! www.skinnytaste.com Before I went to the commissary today I sat down, meal planned, and I wished I'd done this sooner! I think I have it all kind of sorta figured out...I finally feel like I can do this without help without an easy quick fix, with good ol diet and hard exercise! I know it will be a long road and not easy but I'll get there! I just hope my appretite suppresses soon! I have no problem eating what I know is the right amount of calories it just sucks STILL feeling hungry!!! Body over mind, I'm not hungry just drink some water and so far it's starting to help! Body over mind, I can run and run a lot farther and longer than I think! I can do this, I have to do it! Here is my recipe I want to share for today brought to you by www.skinnytaste.com and they are freaking amazing!!! I made them for dinner!!!

Cheesy Jalapeño Popper Baked Stuffed Chicken

What happens when you combine

Skinny Baked Jalapeño Poppers

with chicken??

Oh yeah baby!! Cheesy stuffed chicken breast stuffed with diced jalapeño, cream cheese, cheddar jack cheese, scallions and bacon!

I basically deconstructed my jalapeño poppers and stuffed them into chicken and the results where mouth watering!! I used bread crumbs because I was out of panko, but I think seasoned panko would give these a wonderful crunch like I used on my Skinny Baked Jalapeño Poppers.

I made the serving size a generous two pieces, so a simple vegetable, fiesta lime rice, or a salad on the side would make this a complete meal. Trust me, you won't want to stop at just one!

And those of you on Pinterest, if you want some Skinny Cinco De Mayo inspiration, check out my

Cinco De Mayo board

!

Cheesy Jalapeño Popper Baked Stuffed Chicken
Skinnytaste.com
Servings: 4 • Serving Size: 2 stuffed breasts • Old Points: 9 pt • Points+: 9 pts
Calories: 371 • Fat: 17.5 g • Protein: 42.7 g • Carb: 11 g • Fiber: 1.5 g • Sugar: 0.6 g
Sodium: 355.8 mg (without salt)

Ingredients:

• 2 slices center cut bacon, cooked and crumbled
• 3 jalapeños, chopped (remove seeds for milder)
• 3 oz 1/3 less fat cream cheese, softened
• 4 oz reduced fat shredded cheddar jack (Sargento)
• 2 tbsp chopped scallions
• 8 thin sliced skinless chicken breast cutlets, 3 oz each
• 1/2 cup Italian seasoned whole wheat breadcrumbs
• 1 1/2 juicy limes, juice of
• 1 tbsp olive oil
• salt and fresh pepper
• olive oil non-stick spray

Directions:

Wash

and

dry

chicken cutlets,

season

with salt and pepper.

Preheat

oven to 450°. Lightly

spray

a baking dish with non-stick spray.

Combine cream cheese, cheddar, scallions, jalapeño and bacon crumbles in a medium bowl.

Lay

chicken cutlets on a working surface and spread 2 tbsp of cream cheese mixture on each cutlet. Loosely

roll

each one,

secure

the ends with toothpicks to prevent the cheese from oozing out.

Place breadcrumbs in a bowl; in a second bowl combine olive oil, lime juice, salt and pepper.

Dip chicken in lime-oil mixture, then in breadcrumbs and place seam side down on a baking dish. Repeat with the remaining chicken. When finished, lightly spray the top of the chicken with oil spray.

Bake

22-25 minutes, serve immediately

The reality!

UGH here they are my nasty before photos taken back in Jan. Molly was about 3 months old...
Current weight is 190.0
I was 196 when I started this blog. I gained over 80 lbs with both pregnancies and with Molly even though she nursed I didn't lose and I noticed a few lbs tacked on when she stopped. But here you have it! Me...I can't wait to see my afters!!!!

Where have I been?

Well life has been kinda of crazy past little bit (not really an excuse) but I have still been getting a least a run in! I keep telling myself every night I needed to sit down and update but by the time it's bed time I'm done! I've been fighting a battle with myself after deep thought, prayers, reflection, talking and not talking to my doctor and with friends I've just decided to suck it up and do things the right way for me. We have also been talking about having another baby and I REALLY want to lose this weight even more now. I will say I am so blessed with a 4 year old that don't see me the way I see myself. I was getting ready and looked at myself in the mirror and rambled off that I was fat...which I shouldn't do anyways because I don't want her and Molly to ever feel the way I do about myself, I want them to love the person they are and she looks at me and says "Mommy you are not fat stop saying that you are beautiful" my heart just broke and I cried...and I told her how much I love her and thank you! I don't want her to be ashamed of me or embarrassed, I always worry about that...she totally let me know that she isn't and that she loves me no matter what! To her I am mommy the best mommy ever as she often tells me with a huge hug and kiss! That girl always knows what to say and when to say it and I am sure it's God speaking to me at times through the innocents of her! Since I last wrote I haven't seen my doc anymore I don't want to talk to a man much about my weight especially since he can't really help me. I thought about doing the Adipex thing since there is a doctor that can prescribe it off base but that is $120.00 a pop each time ($60 a visit and $60 to fill the prescription) and after really reading about it and having Matt's option I have just let that idea go out of my head...it really doesn't sound like the best thing to take...I mean sure it might be a fast option but I want to keep this off not lose it and bam it's back. There are the HCG shot places here that are like $60 a week however you are on a 500 cal a day diet and well that just don't seem healthy! I have the tools and knowledge of what I need to do and I don't know what hit me but it's just time to stop trying to find the easy way out and do what I need to do and my results will come and be better than I ever thought and I'm ready! So I thought I'd share my running schedule with you all, here is the link: http://as1.wdpromedia.com/media/ewwos/pdf/rundisney/Galloway/TOT12beg.pdf
It's for the race I'm running at Disney this September. I have been really thinking about running the Walt Disney Marathon in Jan and I think after this race I'll make that decision. Running used to be a very strong suit of mine and once I start losing weight this will become even easier for me it just sucks getting to that point! I have come to realize about myself that I long for the body I used to have and it's hard to accept that I will have to work hard for getting that. I will have to go run when I don't want to, I will have to work out when I don't want too, I will have to give up foods that I don't want to and that I KNOW are not good for me and it just blows! BUT the rewards will be great and I will be happy that I had to suffer! I want to have those amazing before and after pictures! Which here in a few I will post my HORRIBLE before photos. So my eating hasn't really changed much since last time I posted my eating schedule (which I'm sorry I need to get back on doing) but I am working on slowly cutting out the not so great stuff even more! I have also thought about sharing a recipe once a day, what do you all think about that?

Ah the soreness!

Doing the dvd workouts are becoming easier so now I need to throw in my running and get this show on the road. Matt is going to be on swings this coming week so I am going to get it planned out that I run while he is home in the am and do my workout dvd while he is at work that night while Mollybug is in bed. Then the following week and for the next little bit he goes on days so my plan is do to my workout dvd during nap time and then run in the evenings. I'm not gonna lie though it's hard for me to workout at night as far as running goes. By the end of the night I'm just done. Worn out. Maddison and Molly really keep me busy along with our two dogs and housework and yadda yadda yadda...but I guess I could stay to myself no excuse LOL :) I have the time I just need to do it! I met with my doctor again today (not really for weight this time but I got it in there) and he pretty much told me he won't prescribe me anything and I just flat out asked WHY!!!! And his response was it's not that he don't want to it's that as military doctors they are not allowed too all he can do for me is refer me to the nutrutionist. He was really nice about it. He has confidence in me that I can do this on my own and told me I need to have that confidence as well. And well he is right. So now what we are gonna do is meet once a week and go over my food journal and he is going to see if he thinks I need to tweak it and what not. Plus he said he will just talk if needed. We are also going to recheck my thyroid in July. He then asked me what I wanted so I was honest and told him I wanted to try Adipex and he straight up said he would never prescribe that to me or anyone even if he could. He called it crack/meth LOL well ok then... So when I got home as a friend suggested I posted on our wives page about Adipex and and where they got it and one lady privatly messaged me and basically said none of the base doctors will prescribe you any weight loss meds which I know and that she got Adipex from her gyno doctor. She pays $60 an office visit and $60 for the meds every two months. She then gave me the number and address of the clinic. At first I was stoked but then I talked to Matt and he don't really want me to take it either. UGH ok fine fine how many more no's do I need before I just do it the good ol fashion way of portion control (which I am doing and cutting calories and cleaned up my diet really good) and working out (which I am doing also) I'm just VERY impatient. I want it NOW NOW NOW! I'm over looking like I do but it's really my fault and I know that too! SOOOOO next week I will be meeting with doc and going over my journal and talking...fun fun!


Today I want to share a guacamole recipe that I really enjoy!

Ingredients

• 2 large, ripe avocados, peeled and seeded
• 1 clove garlic, minced
• juice of 1/2 lemon
• 1/4 tsp cumin
• 1/4 tsp chili powder
• 1/4 tsp sea salt (optional)
• 1 Tbs hot sauce (optional)
• fresh cilantro to garnish, finely chopped

Instructions

1. Mash all ingredients in a bowl with a fork and serve immediately.
   
   Day of eating was a little different since I was at the doc almost 2 hours (they were behind) and then had to go to the commissary...got home to a mess to clean up and then dinner and now bed LOL. I did get my gallon of water in and today was a rest day for both running and chalean extreme! I guess my journey is mine and it is what it is and I am the only one to change it and make it go the way I want to get the results I want and well I am...it's a slow process but I'll get there! Hope you all are doing well on your journey's!

Sigh...Just another day!

Today I called the base to try to see a female doctor about my weight (my male doctor suggest weight watchers and I decided I needed a new doctor) however I didn't want to change my PMC all together I just wanted to see a woman however here are Moody (and I'm sure as in the rest of the states) you can't do that...in order to see another doctor I have to go to Tricare switch and then hope they get my point....I don't want to fool with all that so I'm meeting with my doctor again! I'm going to be prepared! Going to bring in a food recall of what I have been eating, my work out schedule, and my tears! As the person that scheduled my appt suggested I'm going to be frank with him and lay it all on the line. I have a BMI of 36.7 and I'm 5 feet 1 inch! I'm obese and I just need help! I don't want surgery but I do feel like there are options of there to get me started on my journey and he has the power to give those options to me, I am even going to talk to him about a breast reduction. It's about time that happens (I have been doing my research about if I can nurse another baby if I do that now)...I'm sitting here looking at pictures from our Disney vacation a few weeks ago and I just want to cry...I feel like I look OK until I see a picture of me...I'm fat and I know it...

I'm huge! I have rolls, I just see ugh when I see this! I love my girls more than life itself but I do not love what having babies has done to my body and I even nursed Molly...of course I'm the one that don't loose weight (I gained a little as soon as I stopped nursing her) or get a super flat tummy! I feel like I am in a whole screaming to get out and no one is listening to me. I smile and try to hide how I'm feeling it's getting to the point that I just cry. SIGH UGH but on a good note I am on week two of no soda and barely any sweet tea mostly water, a gallon a day to drink. Still working out so I am sticking with that (I need to get back into running now too) I feel like I'm doing what I need to do right and getting the wrong result and that's pissing me off!!! WHY DOES THINGS SEEM TO WORK FOR EVERYONE ELSE BUT ME???? That's how I feel! Ok so enough with the woe is me moment! I want to say thanks to all you that read this and show their love and support! I know I'm not alone and your support helps me get through this. It takes a lot for me to talk about this stuff but I do know this is motivating for us all. We can do it I know...I just need a jump start!

Here is my recipe of the day!
Always remember you can tweak this to make them your own or to your taste!

Chicken Fajita Salad

Ingredients

• 1 Tbs coconut oil
• 1/2 yellow onion, diced
• 1/2-3/4 lb boneless, skinless chicken breasts
• 1/2 tsp ground cumin
• 2 tsp dried oregano
• 1/4 tsp sea salt (optional)
• 1 large bell pepper, chopped
• 1 large head red leaf or romaine lettuce
• 2 medium tomatoes, diced
• 1 avocado

Instructions

1. Wash and chop onion, bell pepper and tomatoes.
2. Cut chicken into 1/2" slices.
3. Heat skillet over medium-high heat. When hot, add coconut oil and onions. Sauté until onions are soft and slightly translucent.
4. Add chicken, cumin, oregano and sea salt to the onions and continue to cook, stirring often.
5. When the chicken has browned, add the peppers and cook until tender.
6. Meanwhile, wash and shred the lettuce. Divide between two plates.
7. Top lettuce with chicken fajita mix, tomatoes and sliced avocado.

I have added guacamole to it and it made it to my taste! This was my lunch today.

Breakfast:
3 eggs, 3 pieces of bacon, 1 apple

Snack:
hand full of almonds

Lunch:
Chicken Fajita Salad

Snack:
sliced up peppers

Dinner:
rest of chicken fajita salad

some steak grilled pineapple

and water intake:
gallon a day

Tomorrow is my commissary day and I'm prepared with recipes and list to make this easier for me. I'm cutting out all grains now! I hope each of you are doing great on your journey, staying focused, getting your answers, and most importantly loving yourself!